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1O1 Questions People Wouldn't Ask.

OO1. When's the last time you ran? this morning for the train.
OO2. Do your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them? yeah on the parts where i stick my heels in when i'm a drunkie.
OO3. What are you dreading right now? physiology
OO4. Do you celebrate 4/20? probably
005. What is your middle name? dolly
006. have you ever been hospitalised? only for asthma when i was a youngun'
007. how do you want to die? upside-down on the pub floor in a pool of my own vomit
OO8. Do you get the full 8 hours of sleep a night? occasionally
009. What's your sexy fantasy? haha. i like eating turds.
010. What is your favorite disney movie? High School Musical!
011. Are you happy with your life? Why yes i am.
O12. If anyone came to your house on your "lazy days" what would you do? firstly i would be grumpy at them. then i would go on the computer or watch a dvd or something.
O13. Who last grabbed your ass? probs a random out
O14. Have you ever been on a track team? hahahahahaha! ballgames.
O15. Do you own a pair of Converse?yessy they are pinktastic!
O16. Did you copy and paste this survey? yes
O17. Do you eat raw cookie dough? yes
O18. Have you ever kicked a vending machine? i would say yes
O19. Don't you hate it when the radio ruins good songs by playing over and over?if a song is good i would play it over and over myself
020. Do you pick your nose? if it has hard bit in definately. but with a tissue.
O21. Do you watch Trading Spaces?yes and i adore it. i always go for the bitchiest one.
O22. How do you eat Oreos? with my mouth and hands
O23. Have you ever stayed online for a very long time waiting for someone?um mebe if i needed something off them.
O24. Are you cocky? no i'm vaginay
O25. If you could choose between being rich forever or being attractive forever what would you pick?obviously it depends on the other conditions but i would say attractive.
O26. Ever played Spin the bottle? yes
O27. What couldn't you live without...MSN or Myspace? out of those two myspace.
O28. Do you or have you ever kept a diary?i go through phases but generally no
O29. Favorite cereal? toast
O3O. Could you live without a computer?definately not
O31. Do you wear your shoes in the house?only slippers
O33. At what age did you find out that Santa wasn't real? cannot remember.
O34. How many phones, house phones and cell phones are in your house? 8
O35. What do you do when you're sad? ha. drink. play on the internet. get over it.
O36. Who would you call first if you won the lottery? i would probs just msg peeps
O37. Last time you saw your very very best friend?sunday night for eurovision!
O38. Who or what sleeps with you? nobody :(
039. What is your favourite board game? titanic
040. How many true friends do you have (not fam)? hmm twoish.
041. Are you/have you ever been in love? yes. i am in love with everything.
042. What do you do to relax? drinkies, watch tv
043. Are you musical? no i am music.
044. Would you like people to treat you the way you treat yourself? heck no.
045. Is anyone on your bad side now? yes. but i still love them/it.
O46. What jewelry are you wearing? gold sleepers with white beads on them, a gold chain with a wooden butterfly/flower/leaf thingy on it.
O47. What's the first thing you do when you get online? lonelygirl15, myspace, hotmail.
048. Do you believe in a higher power? big brother
O49. Do you watch Grey's Anatomy? very much so
O5O. How do most people spell your name? eliza
051. Did you ancestors struggle through adversity? well the legend it they built their own boat then sailed it here from the uk. but if i know my family they just made that up when they were drunk one time.
052. Who is your favourite family guy character? meg
053. Where do you see yourself in 10 years? Being an OT possibly overseas or in the bush. hopefully knocked up to some degree.
O54. Where do you work? bilo at aspley, suncorp stadium, and very occasionally wagamama in the valley
055. If you were a natural disaster what would you be? hmmm. a twister.
O56. What are you doing tomorrow? uni.
O57. Is Justin Timberlake becoming the next Michael Jackson? i sure hope so.
O58. Favorite name for a girl?Charlotte (lottie for short), Lana, Kallima, Lola, Enya, Luyu.
O59. Favorite name for a boy?James, Oliver, Oscar, Tre, Barret, Bem, Zale, Ruhan, Pax.
O6O. Will you keep your last name when you get married? probably
061. Do you Wii? heh sometimes at mumus.
O62. Where was the last place you went when you left your house? the city. on my way home from nuni.
063. Do you snore? when i'm drunk or tired.
064. Are you oldschool? definately
065. Do you enjoy speeding? um no.
066. What is your favourite vegetable? pumpkin!
O67. Do you return your cart? yes!
O68. What are you looking forward to? life
O69. Do you have a dishwasher? no.
O7O. What noise do you hear? my mum walking around and talking.
O71. Would you survive in prison? most people do
O72. Ever fall down the steps? yes.
O73. Do you have a friend with benefits? no all my friends suck
O74. What is one thing you've learned about life? never to contemplate it
O75. Who is the youngest in your family? black
O76. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, who would be most likely to overpack? claire definately.
O77. Do you know anyone with the same name as you? exactly, no. just the first bit, not really.
O78. Do you believe the statement "bigger is always better"? heck no
O79. Have you ever said "I love you" and not meant it? nos!
O80. Do you think any of your ex's still look good? of course they all do! they didn't suddenly become ugly because i broke up with them! geesh.
O81. What color are your eyes? blau
O82. What outfit do you have on at this exact moment? my jean, a white singlet, and a crazy brown and mustard flowers print kaftan. couple sizes too big.
O83. What's the last thing you purchased? two vodka redbulls. heh.
084. Do your siblings ever pay for stuff for you? no. he steals my money.
O85. How many pets do you have? two
O86. Where does your best friend live? chermside west but soon somewhere else.
O87. What color phone do you have?pink and blue and green
O88. Ever been to Georgia? no
O89. Last time you consumed alcohol? around 12.30pm today
O90. Name 5 things you did last night. 1) listed the muscles of the anterior thigh and hip, and their attachement sites, innervation, line of pull and action. 2) brough plain pretzels even though everyone prefers tomato. 3) got hit in the eye by a mosquito. 4)watched spicks and specks 5) applied tooth mousse.
O91. What irritates you most on the internet? when there are regular LG15 posts. seriously. myspaces with craploads of flashing blarg.
O92. What brand is your digital camera? pentax
O93. Do you watch movies with your parents? sure
O94. Last time you kissed someone? mmm probably a month ago.
O95. Where is your pet right now?dog = outside licking dirt. cat = upstair cruing even tho she knows she doesn't get fed until 9ish.
O96. What word best describes your life right now? gastro-intestinal tract.
O97. Who is your weirdest girl friend:claire/erica
O98. Who is your weirdest guy friend:mohofosho
O99. Do you like sushi?moderately so
1OO. Whats your mood right now? hungry
1O1. Last people you hung out with? pearce and liz at nuni.

don't regret what you had to kill

heyhey y'all! it is eliza!!

i'm doing a blogpost because lately i feel different.

i'm not as bright as i was. i've lost my spark and i don't like it.

i love the same people i loved before.

i'm happy and satisfied, but i don't feel the same as i always have.

i've become a perfectionist. i would prefer to study than spend time with friends. it's becoming increasingly difficult to cope with my physical shortcomings.

sometimes i feel like i have self-control. i've never felt that before. i can concentrate. my mind isn't filled anymore.

i get just as drunk as before. i'm equally as reliant on alcohol to cope with this razzamataz we call life. but it doesn't make me happy. it just numbs the feeling. which is good. but it's different.

i've lost my sex drive. and i am my sex drive. i don't want to be with anyone. the thought of a relationship makes me uncomfortable. i feel totally disconnected from the life creating cycle of the human race. i just don't get that side of life anymore.

at first i thought it was good, i was growing up, becoming more mature and reasonable and sensible. but i've realised that i'm not growing up. because i'm not me. eliza isn't sensible or mature or practical or anything like that. i never was and i never will be. i'm growing sideways, and not in the direction i ever would have wanted.

and i can still act how i used to. but it feels so false. i know that i realistically don't care who got evicted from big brother. and that is not me. i'm living in the body of who i used to be, and i can make it do the same things it used to , but i'm different on the inside. a completely different person. so fucking weird!!

it feels like a different person is living in my body.

and without realising it, everybody treats me like the person i've become. they can get away things they never could before. and they don't really understand why, but i'm not the person they want to spend time with anymore. sometimes i feel betrayed and abandoned and alone. but then i remember, it's the old eliza that cares. i'm beginning to understand that this is how i am meant to be treated, because this i who i am.

the craziest thing is i don't really mind. i'm resigned to my fate. i'm comfortable. i'm happy. that's just how the new eliza rolls.

.

trapped

some kind of heaven

conversations:

B: Hey Eliza
E: Yeah
B: I've got an erection
(stunned silence)

E: Hey Fellatio bunny can you refill my drink bottle
M: What do you say?
E: Fellatio bunny can you please refill my drink bottle
M: That's better

supersonic

...About You...
Nickname: Ellie i guess
Sex: Girl
Eye Color: Blau
Hair Color: Black as a ablack mans black cape AKA brown
Height: 164cm
Favorite Color: Pink
Screen Name: Eliza is MAD
Your Car: Suzi Quatro
Your Hometown: Canberra
Your Present Town: Brisbane
Your Crush's First Name: Eliza
Your Grade: one! at uni! i had to repeat hehe
Your Style: fantasmagicalis!

...Favorites...
Band: Bloc Party currently
Movie: Amiele
TV show: Grey's Anatomy
Song: Chasing Cars- Snow Patrol
Color: Pink
Cigarette: the kind without tobacco
Pastime: screaming in my car

...Have You Ever...
Sat on your rooftop: no
Kissed someone in the rain: yes just recently
Danced in a public place: my occupation
Smiled for no reason: no but i smile without telling people the reason lots
Laughed so hard you cried: yaha
Peed your pants after age 8: i hope not!
Written a song: yes with loretta in the toilets the otherday
Sang to someone for no reason: yeah
Performed on a stage: yeap
Talked to someone you don't know: yepps
Made out in a theater: i don't think so actually
Gone roller skating since 8th grade: don't think so
Been in love: no
A near death experience: no
Sang in front of a large audience: medium sized
...Can You...
Write with both hands: i can try to :)
Whistle: yeah i'm really good
Blow a bubble:yeps
Roll your tongue: ahhaha
Cross your eyes:yahoo
Touch your tongue to your nose: no!se
Dance:sexiler than you!
Speak a different language: not with any great sucses
Impersonate someone: nah
Cook anything: 2 minute noodles. also two minute noodles with snow peas.

...Are you...
Fighter: no too lazy
Smoker: not today!
Drinker: no
Stalker: fuck yeah
Man eater: only after noon
Man hater: occasionally
Lover: sortaish
War freak: nah
Heartbreaker: never purposefully
In love: no
Bossy: YES!!
Friendly: not particularly

...More...
What is your current mood? melancholic
Does your crush like you back? probably not
What makes you happy? myself
Elaborate on your default photo: myself
Name one thing you do a lot: pull stupid faces
Name someone with the same b-day as you: a fool
Are you comfortable with your height: yes. are you?

...Finish The Line...
If I were a ... doctor i'd institutionalise myself
I wish ... for a train made into a disco club
So many people don't know ... the bones and muscles of the shoulder girdle
I am ... dumb
My heart is ... beating hopefully
Pet Peeves ... you!


blarg i am a joiner. bite me. hehe i hope you apprechiate that irony. i sent it in a letter just especially to reach you. it's coming yes it's coming just especially to meet you. i put it in a letter because i couldn't defeat you. now i put it in a letter and i'm oh so pleased to be new.

wahoo.

i prefer the free form method but i have to use the forms.

i desperately need the bloc party and josh pyke cds.

and a new ipod to put them on.

mine is full of the seventies. best era evre to walk this humble turf.

pecan nuts for dirty butts!

bowlarama.

you are the weakest link. goodbye!!

Thought for the Day

A kilt... That's fantastic!

stones on a cold cement roof

i'm in the new biological sciences library at uni. it is very new and nice and whatever but it is pretty empty. it reminds me of the qut one. so lonely! and it has this crazy 'natural lighting concept, with heaps of windows everywhere, and the lights adjust to match the outside. they can get really annoying switching between different settings every couple of minute. total seizure material no not really. and because it is so overcast today it is sorta dim in here. i dunno what they do at night. and i dont like how you face diagonal. i like having a wall against my back. but here no matter where you sit you are accessable from 360 degrees around you. anyway it is actally a really nice library but today i don't like it.

Yesterday i had my first prac for anatomy. we work with actual dead people. not even just plastecied peices of them, which aren't very scary, actual wet specimens. here is a quote from my book thingy. "Potted Organs should be removed from their containers and placed in metal trays obtained from the sink areas either side of the Labratory. The Potted Organs should be returned to their respective containers after use, including any liquid that has collected in the tray." Eww. Today they opened the people for this semester, and because we are first years they let us work in a different lab. Apparently the smell is unbearable, and they are bodies that died between the beginning of semester and now. So we aren't working with them until next week, when the smell won't be as bad. The actuall lab is one of the strictest in the uni. They have video cameras in the hallway outside, it is fully restricted access. And if you are seen holding a mobile phone or camera in the lab it is thrown away and you have to explain yourself to the dean. also if you treat any of the dead people with disrespect you get criminally charged and are banned from the uni for life. It is totally understandable because they are full bequested remains, and they obviously need to be treated super respectfully. but still. so strict.

We work at the same time as the third year science students. i guess they cat them up then we play with the bits. Mabye next year i will be in the same lab as erica. doubtful but still cool. anyway when i look out the ridiculously large windows i can see the first level roof next to me. and it has all these stones on it. like purposely, like a rock garden. i can't possibly understand a) why they needed to make a shadefor sitting under out of cement and b) why they then covered it in stones. i'm sure somebody has done a thesis on this topic and that is why they are there. anyway it is weird.

yeah so yesterday after having a prac in a room half taken up by students and half taken up by dead people (thankfully coverd by a sheet) we had our big intro thing. they told us to bring bags to put our lab coats in because they could get 'matter' on them. gross. i really don't want to get dead person on me. one day i wanna give my body to science. i keep imagining people poking my leg. hehehe. that tickles. OMG i am so weird. i need to be neutered immediately.

anyway that was yesterday. i went home and cleaned and painted a bookshelf. fun. oh and also my brother was talking to mum about his english assignment. and i was like what is it on? and he goes 'sexism in netball'. i was like 'did you pick that topic?' and he goes yeah, we have to report on reports about sport. PROUD. PROUD!!!! proud. yay for blake being a feminist. sorta anyway.

anyway yes i am really excited because tomorow i finally get to do a subject that isn't anatomy! seriously the fact that i have been at uni three days, done 1 2hr tutorial, 1 1hr lecture and 2 2hr pracs and only done one subject is beond ridicoulous. but tomorow i get to do occupational therapy stuff!! but then friday i am back to anatomy. but yay for tomorow. i cannot belive how much stuff i am already ment to know for anatomy. fricken terminology.

i am already about a chapter in readings behind, and that should be impossible. but no. hmm. today i played with bones for two hours. it was uneventful. but then i went to sarahs victoorian womens litereture class and it was cool. i sorta studied and sorta listened. really reminded me of barbie: princess and the pauper. especially the part about seamstresses. and my fone went off and i ate sarahs lollies. ok i am going to print stuff off now. i am excited because i am getting a lift home with sarah.

kisses!!!

what is the light shining all around you?

is it chemically derived?

i am not allowed to use exclamation marks. it is depressing as i overuse them regularly. damn blogger. that is why yesterdays blog only just got posted.

anyways. today i feel used up. emotionally mainly. but mentally and sexually and physically as well. like an empty shell. i feel like if you cut me straight down my midline, would be skin with a bit of crusty flesh attached but apart from that i would have nothing left. i don't know why, i'm not in a bad mood or anything, and i'm not particularly tired, i'm just all used up. weird.

i really want to work as the night receptionist in a hospital or something. seriously i crave the health industry. i had my first day of ot today. so exciting. not really. but it is fun! because even though it is complex we get to move around lots. and touch each other to find different bones and stuff. yay. except our recommended attire for tutorials is a bikini top and bikepants. or tights in winter. comeon. but my young male tutor said he would prefer singlet tops and normal shorts. thanks world.

this morning something so wonderful happened that i wondered whether i had dreamed out loud and somebody overheard. i got an email asking for students who were interested in being teaching assistants for ABA. which is the main technique used to treat austism. yay. i would love that job so unbelivably much. i got that email after staying up late searching for jobs that were in the health industry that involved children that you didn't need formal quailifications for that where conviniant for me that i could do casually. i found one (admin assistant at prince charles peadiatric cardiac unit). i wouldn't get it.

anyway my loves if i want any sleep before my ridiculous 8 am start then i better go.

much love!

I wrote this blog arond 2am on the 26th of feb

hi bitches :)

i haven't done a blog of any substance for quite some time now, so i thought i ought to. also i am not in the mood for sleep. i wanna dance like michael jackson in thriller. those wierd hand pointy things. anyway i will give you an update of my now compleate holidays. once i got the job at wagamama i had four jobs, so i stopped doing mystery shopping. but even having three can be a bit full on at times. but i think i would be bored doing anything less. i don't know if i've written about this but me and joe broke up, so i have been single (aka a total whore) for the entire holidays. i've been busy meeting lots of interesting people. so my life has roughly been bilo in the morning, wagamama in the evening, clubs at night. but thats not every day. normally it is two out of that three. i met a lovely boy called joel at the family and we have been catching up on a vaguely regular basis which is good fun. he is a hunk of spunk. last night we made out in the cab on the way home.

but now i feel bad because monogamy clearly is not my strong point (not that i want it to be) and because our relationship is so ambigious, i don't really know what i am allowed to do. so i'm sticking with that 'do watever feels right at that milisecond' plan. i've been using that method for a while now and there have been no major births, deaths or marriages so i guess it's going well. i've also been clubbing with mohammed a couple of times which is thoroughly entertaining. he is a crack whore and i want to have his babies. i have developed addictions to the following over the last couple months
- alcohol (moreso)
- dresses
- shoes
- clubs
- diet dry ginger ale
- earrings
- lime (muddled as a mixer)

earrings are my biggest love right now. i want to have a massive earring collection. everyone buy my earrings. if you do i will be your best friend. for lent i am tossing up between giving up dresses or fire enginges. i think i'm going to go with fire engines as dresses are just too fantastic. i have stacked on the weight and i need to diet immediately before i explode. damn you, rice. stop being so delicious. that goes for you as well katsu curry sauce. i stacked all my dvds in one place and i have heaps. so weird. i really need to return sarah and sair's dvds but i am rotten inside so i am yet to get around to it. sorry guys just whip me or something. i want to organise a bilo clubbing where lots of people from bilo go clubbing.

also i want to have a holiday where i do nothing. god i need a nothing-filled beach holiday. if anybody else enjoys nothingness and booze call me. page me. things i want to buy:
- a summer dress
- a good digital camera
- a new ipod that can fit more in
- a new fone
- shoes
- the oasis best of cd
- earrings
- a video camera
- champagne. champagne for everyone.
the problem is alot of cameras/mp3s/fones are combinedand i don't quite know what to do. too many options. i start uni tomorow/today. i am nervous and excited. it still seems surreal to be actually doing the course i wanted to do so bad. i've made friends already. obviously through erica but still. they are eveangelicals. i'm tryingto pretend i have less in common with the devil to buy myself some time to find new friends before they start to hate me. i have a balloon that says OT Queensland on it. yeah i can see the jealousy in your eyes.

i got bitten by a spider yesterday. it was exciting. it was on my clothes that i got off the washing line and then it was on me when i put said clothes on. bitchin'. i responded by standing on my bed in my underwear screaming '"blake search for white spiders in brisbane on google. not an image search. type it in. hurry up. now google the symtoms." i love that i am such an e-child. what would you do in the old days if a spider bit you? how would you know whether you were going to die? profound questions i know. last night i was so drunk that i stood in the rain and i didn't realise it was raining. comon guys it was only sprinkling. oh also i met my best friend from when i was 10 at the stocky and she was wasted beond belief and a gonna bit her hand and she had stiches. then she bled everywhere cos she was drunk and she ripped them. she is bipolar or something according to the gossip. she lives in a house with laura, my best friend from when i was 15. i think it would be a fun but crazy house to live in. this is because i innately attract insane persons.

who's that dancin in the red dress? okay darlings i must depart as my chiffon in damp. yes that's right 1974 is my favourite year currently. anydoodles. you are all whores. this fall i am going on vacation to ride scooters.

kisses

poop

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