stones on a cold cement roof

i'm in the new biological sciences library at uni. it is very new and nice and whatever but it is pretty empty. it reminds me of the qut one. so lonely! and it has this crazy 'natural lighting concept, with heaps of windows everywhere, and the lights adjust to match the outside. they can get really annoying switching between different settings every couple of minute. total seizure material no not really. and because it is so overcast today it is sorta dim in here. i dunno what they do at night. and i dont like how you face diagonal. i like having a wall against my back. but here no matter where you sit you are accessable from 360 degrees around you. anyway it is actally a really nice library but today i don't like it.

Yesterday i had my first prac for anatomy. we work with actual dead people. not even just plastecied peices of them, which aren't very scary, actual wet specimens. here is a quote from my book thingy. "Potted Organs should be removed from their containers and placed in metal trays obtained from the sink areas either side of the Labratory. The Potted Organs should be returned to their respective containers after use, including any liquid that has collected in the tray." Eww. Today they opened the people for this semester, and because we are first years they let us work in a different lab. Apparently the smell is unbearable, and they are bodies that died between the beginning of semester and now. So we aren't working with them until next week, when the smell won't be as bad. The actuall lab is one of the strictest in the uni. They have video cameras in the hallway outside, it is fully restricted access. And if you are seen holding a mobile phone or camera in the lab it is thrown away and you have to explain yourself to the dean. also if you treat any of the dead people with disrespect you get criminally charged and are banned from the uni for life. It is totally understandable because they are full bequested remains, and they obviously need to be treated super respectfully. but still. so strict.

We work at the same time as the third year science students. i guess they cat them up then we play with the bits. Mabye next year i will be in the same lab as erica. doubtful but still cool. anyway when i look out the ridiculously large windows i can see the first level roof next to me. and it has all these stones on it. like purposely, like a rock garden. i can't possibly understand a) why they needed to make a shadefor sitting under out of cement and b) why they then covered it in stones. i'm sure somebody has done a thesis on this topic and that is why they are there. anyway it is weird.

yeah so yesterday after having a prac in a room half taken up by students and half taken up by dead people (thankfully coverd by a sheet) we had our big intro thing. they told us to bring bags to put our lab coats in because they could get 'matter' on them. gross. i really don't want to get dead person on me. one day i wanna give my body to science. i keep imagining people poking my leg. hehehe. that tickles. OMG i am so weird. i need to be neutered immediately.

anyway that was yesterday. i went home and cleaned and painted a bookshelf. fun. oh and also my brother was talking to mum about his english assignment. and i was like what is it on? and he goes 'sexism in netball'. i was like 'did you pick that topic?' and he goes yeah, we have to report on reports about sport. PROUD. PROUD!!!! proud. yay for blake being a feminist. sorta anyway.

anyway yes i am really excited because tomorow i finally get to do a subject that isn't anatomy! seriously the fact that i have been at uni three days, done 1 2hr tutorial, 1 1hr lecture and 2 2hr pracs and only done one subject is beond ridicoulous. but tomorow i get to do occupational therapy stuff!! but then friday i am back to anatomy. but yay for tomorow. i cannot belive how much stuff i am already ment to know for anatomy. fricken terminology.

i am already about a chapter in readings behind, and that should be impossible. but no. hmm. today i played with bones for two hours. it was uneventful. but then i went to sarahs victoorian womens litereture class and it was cool. i sorta studied and sorta listened. really reminded me of barbie: princess and the pauper. especially the part about seamstresses. and my fone went off and i ate sarahs lollies. ok i am going to print stuff off now. i am excited because i am getting a lift home with sarah.

kisses!!!

what is the light shining all around you?

is it chemically derived?

i am not allowed to use exclamation marks. it is depressing as i overuse them regularly. damn blogger. that is why yesterdays blog only just got posted.

anyways. today i feel used up. emotionally mainly. but mentally and sexually and physically as well. like an empty shell. i feel like if you cut me straight down my midline, would be skin with a bit of crusty flesh attached but apart from that i would have nothing left. i don't know why, i'm not in a bad mood or anything, and i'm not particularly tired, i'm just all used up. weird.

i really want to work as the night receptionist in a hospital or something. seriously i crave the health industry. i had my first day of ot today. so exciting. not really. but it is fun! because even though it is complex we get to move around lots. and touch each other to find different bones and stuff. yay. except our recommended attire for tutorials is a bikini top and bikepants. or tights in winter. comeon. but my young male tutor said he would prefer singlet tops and normal shorts. thanks world.

this morning something so wonderful happened that i wondered whether i had dreamed out loud and somebody overheard. i got an email asking for students who were interested in being teaching assistants for ABA. which is the main technique used to treat austism. yay. i would love that job so unbelivably much. i got that email after staying up late searching for jobs that were in the health industry that involved children that you didn't need formal quailifications for that where conviniant for me that i could do casually. i found one (admin assistant at prince charles peadiatric cardiac unit). i wouldn't get it.

anyway my loves if i want any sleep before my ridiculous 8 am start then i better go.

much love!

I wrote this blog arond 2am on the 26th of feb

hi bitches :)

i haven't done a blog of any substance for quite some time now, so i thought i ought to. also i am not in the mood for sleep. i wanna dance like michael jackson in thriller. those wierd hand pointy things. anyway i will give you an update of my now compleate holidays. once i got the job at wagamama i had four jobs, so i stopped doing mystery shopping. but even having three can be a bit full on at times. but i think i would be bored doing anything less. i don't know if i've written about this but me and joe broke up, so i have been single (aka a total whore) for the entire holidays. i've been busy meeting lots of interesting people. so my life has roughly been bilo in the morning, wagamama in the evening, clubs at night. but thats not every day. normally it is two out of that three. i met a lovely boy called joel at the family and we have been catching up on a vaguely regular basis which is good fun. he is a hunk of spunk. last night we made out in the cab on the way home.

but now i feel bad because monogamy clearly is not my strong point (not that i want it to be) and because our relationship is so ambigious, i don't really know what i am allowed to do. so i'm sticking with that 'do watever feels right at that milisecond' plan. i've been using that method for a while now and there have been no major births, deaths or marriages so i guess it's going well. i've also been clubbing with mohammed a couple of times which is thoroughly entertaining. he is a crack whore and i want to have his babies. i have developed addictions to the following over the last couple months
- alcohol (moreso)
- dresses
- shoes
- clubs
- diet dry ginger ale
- earrings
- lime (muddled as a mixer)

earrings are my biggest love right now. i want to have a massive earring collection. everyone buy my earrings. if you do i will be your best friend. for lent i am tossing up between giving up dresses or fire enginges. i think i'm going to go with fire engines as dresses are just too fantastic. i have stacked on the weight and i need to diet immediately before i explode. damn you, rice. stop being so delicious. that goes for you as well katsu curry sauce. i stacked all my dvds in one place and i have heaps. so weird. i really need to return sarah and sair's dvds but i am rotten inside so i am yet to get around to it. sorry guys just whip me or something. i want to organise a bilo clubbing where lots of people from bilo go clubbing.

also i want to have a holiday where i do nothing. god i need a nothing-filled beach holiday. if anybody else enjoys nothingness and booze call me. page me. things i want to buy:
- a summer dress
- a good digital camera
- a new ipod that can fit more in
- a new fone
- shoes
- the oasis best of cd
- earrings
- a video camera
- champagne. champagne for everyone.
the problem is alot of cameras/mp3s/fones are combinedand i don't quite know what to do. too many options. i start uni tomorow/today. i am nervous and excited. it still seems surreal to be actually doing the course i wanted to do so bad. i've made friends already. obviously through erica but still. they are eveangelicals. i'm tryingto pretend i have less in common with the devil to buy myself some time to find new friends before they start to hate me. i have a balloon that says OT Queensland on it. yeah i can see the jealousy in your eyes.

i got bitten by a spider yesterday. it was exciting. it was on my clothes that i got off the washing line and then it was on me when i put said clothes on. bitchin'. i responded by standing on my bed in my underwear screaming '"blake search for white spiders in brisbane on google. not an image search. type it in. hurry up. now google the symtoms." i love that i am such an e-child. what would you do in the old days if a spider bit you? how would you know whether you were going to die? profound questions i know. last night i was so drunk that i stood in the rain and i didn't realise it was raining. comon guys it was only sprinkling. oh also i met my best friend from when i was 10 at the stocky and she was wasted beond belief and a gonna bit her hand and she had stiches. then she bled everywhere cos she was drunk and she ripped them. she is bipolar or something according to the gossip. she lives in a house with laura, my best friend from when i was 15. i think it would be a fun but crazy house to live in. this is because i innately attract insane persons.

who's that dancin in the red dress? okay darlings i must depart as my chiffon in damp. yes that's right 1974 is my favourite year currently. anydoodles. you are all whores. this fall i am going on vacation to ride scooters.

kisses

poop

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