what is the light shining all around you?

is it chemically derived?

i am not allowed to use exclamation marks. it is depressing as i overuse them regularly. damn blogger. that is why yesterdays blog only just got posted.

anyways. today i feel used up. emotionally mainly. but mentally and sexually and physically as well. like an empty shell. i feel like if you cut me straight down my midline, would be skin with a bit of crusty flesh attached but apart from that i would have nothing left. i don't know why, i'm not in a bad mood or anything, and i'm not particularly tired, i'm just all used up. weird.

i really want to work as the night receptionist in a hospital or something. seriously i crave the health industry. i had my first day of ot today. so exciting. not really. but it is fun! because even though it is complex we get to move around lots. and touch each other to find different bones and stuff. yay. except our recommended attire for tutorials is a bikini top and bikepants. or tights in winter. comeon. but my young male tutor said he would prefer singlet tops and normal shorts. thanks world.

this morning something so wonderful happened that i wondered whether i had dreamed out loud and somebody overheard. i got an email asking for students who were interested in being teaching assistants for ABA. which is the main technique used to treat austism. yay. i would love that job so unbelivably much. i got that email after staying up late searching for jobs that were in the health industry that involved children that you didn't need formal quailifications for that where conviniant for me that i could do casually. i found one (admin assistant at prince charles peadiatric cardiac unit). i wouldn't get it.

anyway my loves if i want any sleep before my ridiculous 8 am start then i better go.

much love!