the girl down the street said a dog couldn't bark cos a man with an axe cut it's voice box out

the noises that the trains made sounded like people in my head

i keep attrachting scary freaks on public transport. i know that is a sorta obvious statement but seriously every bus/train that i hop on that is not going to uni has had some sort of scary/disgusting person talking to me or something. or aborigionals shotting goon. or something annoying like that

not too sentimental, but i want you to know

saaairs i saw son of man last night. i thought it was really good as well. and i noticed things that you pointed out. my favorite bit was the noise at the very end (trying not to give too much away)

so please don't pack away your summer clothes. cos there's still gardens i wanna grow with you.

so anyway after me and joe saw son of man we spent ages talking in the carpark at chermside. we decided to stay together while he is in macedonia for six weeks. so that was nice. i was encouraging him to have a fling but he decided not to. i will miss him a bit. he leaves on the 27th. his mom hasnt seen her family for 11 years! how crazy is that??

we'll take a car ride out to the country

anyway my point behind this is that after we decided to go get mcflurrys. so i was driving and wateva and my windscreen was really foggy due to it being freezing (WTF was with that by the way) . and when i put the aircon on my car can't really go over 30, so on gympie road thats a pretty bad option. so i was driving along trying to see the lanes and then i hear this BLURP! and it was a siren!!! and it was a police car behind me sirening me!! but a detective type of police car ! so i just shit myself and i'm like gah! is that me? what do i ???!?!?!?!? a joe's like yep, it's you, you have to pull over. and i did. and i was like omg what did i do? we knew i wasn't speeding cos we were having a conversation about how we didn't like speeding. jow though that they were going to tell me that my car wasn't roadworthy which it probably isn't. but anyway the girl comes up and i am trembling unbelievably and freaking out and this was our conversation ok guys:
scary police lady: Hi just a ramdom breath test and license check
me: ok (scrambles uselessly for licesne, trys to hand lady licesnce without dropping it)
spl: have you been drinking at all tonight?
me: no
spl: where are you going?
me: mcdonalds
spl: just blow in here pleasee (so i did)
spl: right. is this your car?
me: no it's my parents
spl: have you drivin it before?
me: yep
spl: it's just you were braking lots and it seemed like you didn't know what you were doing
me: oh the windscreen is really foggy, i couldn't see.
spl: ok.

and that was it. so then i had to drive away with them watching me and my hands shaking unbelievably. and then i was flaining my arms at joe at the lights and they pulled up next to me. so bad. anyway yeah it was super terrifying. my legs were shaking so bad i had to hold them still on the breaks and i was too scared to do anything but drive in a straight line until we got to carseldine. poor joe was just like, um we have to pull over or we will end up at the sunshine coast. i felt so sorry for him. and i had to haul sukis delapedated ass up the hill thing at maccas which was bad. but then joe drove home to chermside which was nice of him. that was seriously the most terrifying moment of my life. but luckily i was just i bad driver, i didn't actually do anything wrong. so yeah. i feel nervous just writing about it. haha i was driving so badly they thought i was drunk. tehe. gah *has tantie*

oh i found this poem in my file while i was looking for my caligula assignment for sarah (couldn't find it btw). and it is so teenage and angsty i love it. so you can enjoy it.

You’re everything I’ve been told I should be
It’s UNFAIR!!
Why the fuck can’t that be me
So clean and pure
It’s so FUCKING unfair
You’re the girl who they take home to momma with pride
I’m the girl with the secrets; I’m the one that they hide

You worry about whether your house is clean
WTF? You have a fucking house
WTF does that mean?
Who on earth has a house at age 19?
If I had a house I would fill it with shit
From corner to corner
Dirt and grime so thick

That I couldn’t see clearly
In the bowl when I was sick
From the night on the town that I have every night
From that one too many
No number of tears can clear vision that thick

You worry about whether your house is clean
I worry about whether there’s a baby in me

You’re everything that I’ve been told I should be
It’s so fucking unfair
Why can’t I be just me?

yep i know i am awsome/a loser.

it's funny how you can miss someone when they are sitting next to you

in other news i am now a emplyee of wagamamas fortitude valley. it is a noodle bar. i like to say i work in a doodle bar in the valley. heh. it is pretty good. they are oipening one at chermside and all their staff went there so that is why they needed me. they are opening one in queen street soon. apparently htey are quite popular in the southern states. it is so good working a place where the customers are in a good mood and they want to be there. make apologising for stuff ups easier. i was pretty surprised i got the job but yeah i did. y'all should check it out. if i still like it when uni goes back then i will quit bilo. which i am ather pleased aboout. right now i have 4 jobs which is verging on ridiculous. okay it is totally ridiculous but smeh. i am still poor tho.

thanks myself

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
"I scarcely remember how the wish was originally excited; and was in the Spring of last year induced"
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What's there? air
3. What is the last thing you watched on TV? Australian Idol (i will marry dean on morrows eve)
4. Without looking, guess what time it is:8:53pm
5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?9:17pm
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?josh pyke in my right ear "how long will my belly ache with hollow", csi in my left. and the sound of my fingers hitting the keys.
7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?walking from my car to the house when i got home from work
8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at? bilo chocolate wafers
9. What are you wearing?bilo clothes which are dirty and crushed
10. Did you dream last night? i guess so
11. When did you last laugh? today at work i would say
12. What is on the walls of the room you are in? (kristy your comment was hilarious here). some australian style paintings, a cartoon map of new zealand, a map of the americas, a map of egypt, a computer-generated image of mt. everest., a photo of santorini, a photo of a tibetan house, a really long paperclip chain suck in zig-zagish patterns with several photos that i took and millions of drawings that blake and grandma and grandpa did stuck throughout it.
13. Seen anything weird lately? only whenever i open my eyes
14. What do you think of this quiz? pretty good
15. What is the last film you saw? son of man
16.If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? a house on the beach for my parents, a house near uni for me, a vodka factory, trvels, and i would invest the rest with BoQ (6.9% how good is that!?)
17. Tell me something about you that I don't know: i really apprechiate that you put a colon insted of a question mark on this question, whoever made this up wasn't a 14 yr. old slut with a pink myspace. i can't think of anything that i haven't told someone who reads this blog.
18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? i would make all weapons disappear, and remove the parts of everyones brain that lets them think about weapons. actually i would remove aggresion cos we don't really need it anymore.
20. George Bush: smells like a turtle
21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? Amani, Amithi, Astrid, Baina, Chenoa, Ebony, Enya, Frieda, Halyn, Isra, Kallima, Kimi, Lana, Leila, Lottie, Luyu, Malia, Reyna, Saoirse.
22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? Barrett, Bem, Frederick, James, Oscar, Oliver, Pax, Raimi, Ruhan, Zale. (i clearly am a loser who wants babies. i am going to have triplets called Lottie, Oliver and Oscar, and two of them are gonna marry sarahs boy and girl twins and the other one shall be gay. yesyes. go look up the meanings of my names! thats what makes them good)
23. Would you ever consider living abroad? only for a bit
24. What do you want to say to God when you reach the pearly gates?whoops about the whole life thing i did there. this is pretty surprising. guess i'll catch ya later.

this blog had a similar format to my last blog. so totally. i rock.

love you!!!!!